A bit longer this time....

{Authors note..... This is a bit longer, but very personal.... Enjoy!}

Ben the bird is blue because he could only find a blue felt tip pen

Normally, not finding a black felt tip pen would remind Ben of the failure he calls life

This would make ben angry, which would make him feel guilty.... and so this very minor disruption would cause ben so much stress and self hatred that he would shut down

Sometimes ben would shut down for a few minutes sometimes a few hours, usually a few days... of utter self hatred for such a silly reason that ben couldn't express himself

This would cause a spiral of self hate that ben would wish he was normal, stupid, smarter or just plain dead

Sometimes ben would think about killing himself because he could only find a blue felt tip pen.... but really because he hated himself for his reaction

Ben the bird says this almost never happens.... Ben the bird is almost always lying.... Ben the bird thinks about this alot

Ben the bird thinks that by not talking a bout it... by being strong to others..... by denying his feelings completely..... that they will just Go Away

Ben the bird knows that it wont work, but he also knows he has to do it...  because its who he must be...

But one night Ben told Sarah bunny, and she was worried, because she was worried about him... She wanted him to be happy

Ben wanted Sarah to be happy, so he tried... But it wasn't until Ben saw JT the snake talk about his problems that ben knew he had to do something

So Ben did... Ben went to a councilor and started taking Zoloft, an antidepressant
{the bottle is a bitch to open}

And now even though Ben the bird is very disappointed he is in blue felt ink pen instead of black... He is acknowledging his feelings, and is on the road to being happy

That is why Ben the bird is smiling.... or at least he would be if his beak could smile....

{If I was a parallel, my author could be smiling right now}